It hurts...

I miss you so badly...
I read my sister's friendster comment accidentally...
I didn't know she misses him so badly....
Yea...I think everyone of us miss him so badly...
She wrote that "will never see him making brother laughs, will never see his warm smile"...
Yes...We'll never see him again...
He's gone forever from our world...

Monday will be the 49th day....
Where will he be?
I've tried so hard not to think too much....
But I can't help myself to think....
I thought of those days we saw him lying in there, not moving at all....It just kills me....
I don't allow myself to shed a single tear...but what can i do?
I just can't....

I used to get a phone call from him every week...
I called him and talked crap...
But my phone will never shows his number again...
I'll never receive his phone call...no more...

He really had left me... left us...

I NEED MORE EXERCISE!!!!!!!!

It's been long since last I jogged.
Oh My Goodness! I really have to do more exercise ler!
I could hardly breathe man! I began to pant after 200 metres from MUV!
2oo METRES! Come on! It's such a short distance!
I managed to jog for 500 metres before, only started to pant!
Gosh! I old already!
I think I walked more than jogged man!
And it's freaking embarrassing when my landlord said "Are you okay ar? You don't look well." when I got home.
So embarrassing! I can't imagine how I looked! Must be pale la!
Haiyo haiyo!
Really must jog everyday ler!
I don't wanna become old lady!