ORION

It was me who cried
Not showing your weakness doesn't mean that you're strong
Because you told me, i believe

My breath becomes cold and my foot stretches in front of me back home
I might even forget the warmness that I felt just now
I just realised how it feels to love someone

It was me who cried
The beautiful winter constellations, hope they don't disappear from the sky
I looked at it, I believe

I want to protect this hand so it will never separate
What I want to say doesn't come as words
Laughing at things surrounding you softly

Counting the number of shooting stars
I'm here right now because we met
Because you taught me, I believe

It was me who cried
Not showing your weakness doesn't mean that you're strong
Beacuse you told me, I believe

Because you told me, I believe

What a blog for?

Can anyone tell me what a blog does?
I have never doubted on what am I doing (i mean writing blog) and now I am still insist on my thought...
From the first second I started writing blog, I expected to receive all kinds of comments. I am kind of open person so I can take any comments.
For me, a blog is a space where you can write anything you like. And yes, I wrote all kinds of things, my feelings la, my idol la, anyway, i write whatever i like!
I wrote about my feeling to a guy recently and I wrote about him in almost every recent posts. I really think there is nothing wrong lo!
But I actually received a comment from anonymous which was really awful!
I have no right to control what others are going to talk and comment about my blog and I already said that I am kind of easy going person, all kinds of comments are welcome!
But this comment was really terrible that making me so freaking sick!
I really think there is nothing wrong to like a guy and express my own feelings. Moreover, this is my space! I can write whatever I like, can't I?
I really don't understand why the 'anonymous' commented like that?
Is he/she that imbalance?
How he/she knows my feelings if he/she is not in this kind of condition?
I don't mean to blame anyone.
I just want the world to be peaceful without all these 'insulting' words!
Anyway, I just wanna release my anger.
And I will still keep writing whatever I like in my blog, if anyone feels it's distracting or annoying THEN DON'T READ THEM!
THERE IS NO POINT HURTING OTHERS IN WORDS, YOU WON'T GAIN ANY 'WEIGHT'!
Done! I got all I want to say!
Feel comfortable now....

Sweet >.<

Yea, I know I am so busy that didn't even left any footstep here!
AND science assignment due tomorrow...
Anyway...

I really want to jot down what had happened today! haha!
Today is considered to be my happy day (since been busy doing assignment and this is just reduced my tension)!

All right, Tanya told me yesterday that she will not going for the morning lectures (poor her, need to hunt for house).
I went through the morning's lectures all alone, super sleepy!
Was thinking of not having any lunch der but really don't wanna waste that 1 hour break. Haha.
Called Charlene and asked whether she's having lunch in uni or dorm.
Surprisingly, she said makan in uni.
Ok, we met up!
Really THANK YOU to Charlene, haha!
Want to know the reason?
Yea, if she said she wanted to have lunch in dorm then I won't see him....

Some people know who 'he' is. Haha.

Yea, our (me and Charlene) seats was so strategic! I chose it ok!

I just saw him walked in with his friends.

I finally showed Charlene. I htought she would have seen him before but surprisingly, she didn't.

OMG, he is so CUTE! PInk T-shirt again. He is just too suit with PINK!

OMG, he just sat at the place in front of my vision.

Before going for the next lecture, Charlene said to me 'your eyes didn't blink at all ar! no no, is turning 360 degree!' (know what she meant? haha!)

Yea, I admitted that I couldn't take my eyes off him! Everybody likes to see 'leng zai', so looking at 'leng zai' is legal ho!

Tanya joined me after the lecture finished. She said she was thinking of givinng me surprise by showing herself in the lecture hall before I came out from the lecture hall.

Nah nah, no surprise! By the time she showed herself in the lecture hall, everyone had gone (lecture finished earlier) and I was in the library by the time.

So I was in the library!

Guess what?

'Leng zai' was sitting at the place next to the computers with his friends!

OMG, so lucky!

Tanya sent me a msg asking me where was I? Of course I told her I was in the library.

I was about to leave, 'leng zai' also left his friends. I wondered where was he going?

So ngam, Tanya was coming up and yes, I finally showed her my 'leng zai'! Haha!

We then went to Macquarie centre since we got 2 hours break.

Phone rang.... Was Charlene.

'Hi, 'dim ar' ?' I asked.

'Mandy, I saw the guy you admired!' said Charlene.

'Ya meh? Where?'

'In ERIC! You know the computer room you used for last sem's STAT170? That room! I think he is tutor! I go in and see ar!'

'Really!? I should take STAT170 this sem! Haha!'

'OKla, I go and see la!'

'Ok, bye!'

OMG, our crazy conversations! I told Tanya about it.

So funny, I showed Charlene today then she found he is one of the student tutor.

Tanya and I passed by ERIC (we need to go to tutorial class and will definitely passed by ERIC from macquarie centre to our class).

Just a glance....

I saw him from the doorway. I told Tanya and he passed by again! This time he saw us! OMG!

Really raise my adrenaline level everytime I see him!

I really crazy!

I found today is really a happy day for me after all the stresses from assignments!

He is such a good stress mediator for me! Haha!

The Banquet?

Yesterday was the BANQUET for me and Tanya!
Know why?
We had lots of great food and all the food looked so NICE!
Yesterday was not in very good weather; raining the whole day but we were so enthusiastic in hunting good food in the city!
With our empty stomach in the morning, we went to Pancakes on the Rocks!
I've long heard of the pancakes on the rocks and i got the chance to try finally yesterday!
Wanna know why is Pancakes On The Rocks so damn well known?
I'll show you!

Tanya's Vanilla Swiss Shake and My Lime Swiss Shake! These shakes are very different from other shakes I tried in other places! These are really smooth and... just too PERFECT!

Devil's Delight... This is REALLY DAMN SUPER TASTY! The taste of chocolate flavoured pancakes just kills me! Chocolate Lovers... MUST try this!

The Ultimate Crepes... Crepes filled with cheesy yoghurt and dip with strawberry sauce... This is really made me feel like in the heaven! It is just too TASTY!

Just see my facial expression, you will definitely know how those pancakes and crepes taste like!

Tanya enjoyed the Devil's Delight soooo much! She said the chocolate pancake was really a BOMB for her! Imagine how YUMMY it is that can bombs someone!

Finished! Left with UGLY plates.... Haha!

Okay! With our fulled stomachs, we left to the Opera House! It is just a short distance from The Rocks!

Know what? I've been in Sydney for 1.5 years but this was the first time I went to the Opera House! Don't laugh! This is TRUE! Anyway, I've finally been to the Opera House! Wakakaka!

At the front of the Opera House! Rain stopped for a while, Just nice! Haha! We looked pretty right?

I was trying to pull the door. Anyway, It was locked!

One of the doors, i mean the theatre was opened. Yea, we entered and this photo was taken inside the Opera House!

Okay! Next stop was the Lindt Chocolate Cafe! We met Shir Li in the city and she brought us to this cafe for our afternoon tea!

It's blur but this is the shop la!

While waiting for our drinks to be served, we took these lovely photos! (I really like Tanya's dress!)

Tanya's milky hot chocolate...

My dark hot chocolate...

Anyone noticed that there were not drinks in the cup? Haha! We were actually provided with an empty cup, a small jug filled with hot milk and another one filled with chocolate! We need to make the drinks ourselves! Special ba? Haha! This is the best hot chocolate I ever have!

Last destination was the Fish Market! We were actually wanted to go in the morning der...

We went aroung 4.15pm... AND we had not many food left.... So sad! These were what we had and really very little....

Cheezy Lobster... this is 15 bucks! But tasty!

Scallops and Calamari! 12 bucks! I LOVE scallops and calamari alots!

Tanya and I were so regret that we didn't get to eat the FISH N CHIPS! Never mind! We already made an appointment with each other that we will go to Fish Market again after Exam and before we go back to M'sia! Hehe...

Yesterday was really HAppy Day! Yes, both of us deserved this before we go for 2 weeks prac in the coming 2 weeks!

So Super Thank You, Tanya for bringing me to the Pancakes On The Rocks and had fun with me! Haha! And Thanks to Shir Li for bringing us to the nice Lindt Chocolate Cafe! Lotz of Muax for you gals!

Big SURPRISE!!!!!!!

Boo!
Today I had make up classes for ECH215 which make up the classes I'll miss in next 2 weeks.
Went to Uni early in the morning since class started at 9am.
Got very interesting lessons too.
Have a look and guess what is that in the pictures. This is one of the things that we did in the class.

Any Idea?

Mooncake. NOPE! Mooncake festival has already passed! Try again!

Give up?

Fine, I'll tell you the answer!

It's the earth!

Cool, isn't it? It just looks exactly like the earth! Haha!

We used plasticine to make this, interesting har!

Anyway, we finished class at 1.15pm but it was about 1.30pm when I came out. I was just so hungry!

Was thinking of what to eat for lunch... I was actually ajak Tanya for lunch but she needs to work unfortunately.

Haiz, no choice! Just grab something to eat. Anyway, I got myself the muffin combo.

After I finished eating I went to toilet (so embarassing by telling this).

I then heading to the library... GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!

Eih? Why this guy looks so familiar?

ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! IT"S HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh My Gosh! He walked passed me!

I never thought that I'll get to see him until 1 month later!

But see WHAT WAS ACTUALLY HAPPENED!!!

What a coincidence!

He is still looks sweet and cute! And DAMN....

He is just too suit to pink polo shirt!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've seen him wearing pink polo few times!

OMG it was really a big surprise for me!

Made me so happy by just seeing him! Feel so SWEET!

Don't know when can I get to see him again ler? Haha...

When you experienced the same as in your assignment essay...

Yay~
I've finally finished the "loss and death" assignment!
Ready to to submitted now!
It's really been hard for me doing this assignment!
Firstly, I got sick!
And this assignment topic is REALLY REALLY distress!
Now that I know how people deal and cope with stillbirth and miscarriage (can't really feel how they feel though).
Anyway...

I know it's really hard when you lose a loved one (i mean death)...
I knew it...
I did lost my loved one 10 years ago...
It was really a hard time for me.
I don't remember how i got through this...
It had been 10 years ago though, he is still the biggest influence for me.
I think of him, miss his hugs and kisses...

I really... I did thought of going back to the moment we spending together...
Wished to have time machine that can brings me back to the days with him...
But this is only happens in my dream...
I know I will never see him again...
Not even once again...
I told myself I have to move on...
He will not happy if he sees me sad all the time...

I know everyone will need to pass the life cycle...
Birth, old, ill and death is must for everyone.
It is just how you see and accept it.
Death, is not necessary apply to those oldies.
It may happens to the youth and even a little baby who is just came to the world...
Accept it as part of your life...
Don't regret when you lose someone...
Most importantly, be happy with the one you loved...
Appreciate every moment that you have...
Live your life to the fullest...
Love them and yourself as much as you can everyday...

1 litre of tears?

1 litre of tears… or maybe I should say more than 1 litre of tears…
It’s been long since I watched the Japanese drama- 1 litre of tears; watched again and again…

I think I’ve watched more than 7 times ler…
Still… wept every time watching it… maybe I’m just too “crybaby”…
People who watched this drama should know this is actually a real story….
I’ve never thought there is someone like Aya-chan, lives strongly…and never thought of giving up of her life…
If I got this kind of illness or some other incurable disease, I rather die…I mean it…

Don’t wanna live dependent of others… don’t wanna be a burden to family or to anyone else…
If I was the one got this kind of illness, I don’t think I can be that strong…
Even if she was sick, she still thought of helping others…
Inequity always exists in this world…good people do not always have good returns… baddies; on the contrary do not always get the retribution…
And really sarcastic that those dying people wanna keep living, some healthy people wanna end their lives… really don’t understand why?????

Sometimes ler, watch drama or movie can also gain something der…sees what I’ve realized…
People… sometimes, don’t be so despair… maybe what u see from this angle isn’t that good; why don’t try to see from another angle? Maybe u will find this much more better, not that disappointing… Isn’t it a good thing?

一个人的生活...

首先是国民服役,不过这是小CASE,三个月罢了!

接着到吉隆坡去读A-LEVELS...开始了真正的一个人生活...

说真的,我不是个容易适应的人.

而且从小都不曾离开过父母,是个依赖性蛮强的人...

一个人的生活...寂寞吗?

自从中学毕业后,就一直接触一个人的生活...

刚开始的几个星期对我来说简直是不能说出的害怕和寂寞...

过后也交了几个好朋友所以也渐渐的习惯了...

而且说真的吉隆坡不会很远,无个小时的车程罢了!

想家时绝对可以马上搭巴士回家!

现在,一个人的生活升级了!

这次,转战澳洲!

说真的澳洲说远不远,说近也不很近...

今年已进入了第八个月了吧!

出国深造,多么的令人羡慕啊!并不是人人都有的机会啊!

我该好好珍惜才对!

我记得去年刚来时的第三个月吧...

当时的我陷入失恋的痛苦再家上念家,竟然在吃晚饭时在大家面前哭了...

现在想起来还真的超丢脸的...

真希望那些人都不记得了...

虽然说放假后回来时还会流眼泪...不过我想这是正常的吧?

现在也慢慢的习惯了一个人的生活...

虽然有时还是觉得家里人多热闹真好,不过也不至于在大家面前哭了...

我知道人都必须长大,总有一天也要离开父母的...

也许现阶段是训练我独立的最佳时刻吧!

我很清楚不能再让大家担心了!

我要好好过!

坚强!

振作!

三年后让大家看到不同的我!

我绝对办得到的!

我会证明给"你"看的!

等着瞧吧!

什么叫做寂寞？

当一段爱情结束了之后，男人会发现，他的自由多出了一些，而女人则会发现，她的时间多出了很多。

女人说：〖从前一个人时候，不懂什么叫做寂寞，遇见你之后，才开始体会到什么是孤单。〗

男人说：【所谓的寂寞并不是真正的寂寞，只是一种心灵空虚而已。】

女人说：〖你应该花点时间陪我！〗

男人说：【你应该自己多找点事情来做。】

女人说：〖我们的寂寞是你们男人一手造成的。〗

男人说：【你们的幸福也是我们男人一手创造的。】

女人一直不能服气，为什么男人可以来去自如，没事才来，有事就走？

男人一直不明白，为什么女人永远要人陪，总是抱怨自己给的还不够？

是女人太容易寂寞了？还是男人付出太少了？

一旦陷入情网，女人就会天真的以为，自己过着的是两个人一起的日子。

可是，在男人的认知里，他们过的仍然是自己一个人的生活。

女人轻易的以为爱情是自己的全部，她们吃饭，呼吸，无时无刻不牵挂着她的男人。

但是，对男人而言，爱情占的只是生命的一小块而已。

男人只有在疲倦的时候，才会希望身边有个人可以陪伴。

女人却是在每一分钟里，都想要陪伴着她们的男人。

因此，当一段爱情结束以后，男人会发现，他的自由多出了一些，而女人则会发现，她的时间多出了很多。

〖爱恋絮语〗缺使用二十把锁，把（爱〕牢牢地锁在密室（爱〕也照旧能把锁个个打开。

美杜莎的眼泪

相信大家都知道美杜莎(MEDUSA)的传说吧?

美杜莎在希腊神话中是一个有着满头蛇发的女妖.

她可是海神和海妖所诞下的神妖综合体.

据说她原来是一位美丽的少女,但因与智慧女神雅典娜(ATHENA)比美触怒了她.

雅典娜一怒之下将美杜莎变成带着蛇发,面目丑陋的怪物.

美杜莎最后被珀耳修斯取下首級，献給雅典娜，雅典娜將美杜莎的頭嵌在神盾埃癸斯的中央。

任何直望美杜莎双眼的人都会变成石像.

其实我在想美杜莎会变成这样也不能完全怪她的!

女生嘛,当然希望自己长得比其他人美丽啊!

为什么她就得受到这种惩罚,或者说是羞辱呢?

失去美丽的容貌已经很可怜的了...连头都被取下...

在被取下首级的瞬间,她是感到害怕还是庆幸能够脱离这种丑陋的生活呢?

在她把人变成石头的瞬间,她是否也难过地流下了眼泪呢?

我想她并不是真的想把无辜的人变做石头的,但却非得承受被所有的人憎恨...

真的是件多么痛苦的事啊!

其实我想美杜莎的一生还蛮痛苦的...

她会不会跟我们一样痛苦时哭泣?

如果是这样,我想她流的泪绝对比我们的更多更多...

Hopeless?

Is that really hopeless in the world?

I’ve read a story about Pandora yesterday.

In the Greek mythology, Pandora was the first woman that created with unique gifts by Zeus as a part of the punishment of mankind for Prometheus’ theft of the secret of fire.

All the gods joined in offering her seductive gifts. Her other name, inscribed against her figure on a white ground cylix in the British, is Anesidora, “she who sends up gifts”.

According to the myth, Pandora opened a jar (pithos) in modern accounts referred to as “Pandora’s box”, releasing all the evils of mankind- greed, vanity, slander, envy, pining and leaving only HOPE inside once she had closed it again.

She left the HOPE inside…Does this mean there will never have hope in the world? Anyway, that is just an ancient myth. I really believe that chances and fate are in the control of own self. So, why live in despair? Wanna get some, go get some! Remember, just follow your feelings in doing everything and you will find HOPE not far from you…